Poor Megan

This week was difficult. It started out normal, but then since I am starting a new job I decided to go visit the people I would be working with in Kato. Great people. Great place. The city is a different story. I need to find a place to live and all the places really, well…suck ass!! There is like one new building in the whole fucking city and it is booked through 2009 AND has a waiting list. This building was built in the last year and EVERYthing else in the city was built in the 60’s and 70’s and are just as expensive as the new place. Are you fucking kidding me?!?! I mean seriously. Maybe that says something? Maybe people want a NICE place to live? I am soooo over living in college type/crappy places. I want someplace nice! Is that too much to ask? And the rent…things there are not any cheaper than here in Minneapolis. I mean seriously, I know there is a university there, but are you fucking kidding me! Obviously, they need more, NICE places. Any Joe Schmoe could tell you the basic economics of Supply and Demand. Hello!! Build more NICE places because you have a two-year fucking waiting list for the only new god damn building in the entire city.

Ok, sorry…I just needed to rant. I am getting a little stressed about finding a place. I can live with my sister and her fiancé for a short time, but I really just wanted to move and settle in. What the fuck ever!!!

Not only am I upset about that whole situation, but I am extremely sad right now. First, I think I just got denied, which I was actually planning on anyway so not a surprise, but the biggest thing that makes be really sad right now is Derek just came to pick up the dog [Megan]. Anyone who really knows me, knows that I am not one to get emotional, but when I looked out the window and she was standing by his car, staring at the front door, waiting for me to come out, it made me really really really sad, or as an old neighbor used to say “schmeltz!” Even before they walked out the door, he went out first and she stood there waiting for me. It was almost like she was saying “aren’t you coming daddy?” Part of me thinks I will not ever see her again because I feel like he will not let me. I mean he took everything of hers. I also feel sooooo bad for her. He will spoil her today, but that will be it. He never paid any attention to her the 3 years we were together. That is why she always followed me around and was sad when I left. When we were together he even said, “She whines when you leave.” If I would go to the store and he stayed with her she was always waiting for me by the door when I got home rather than sitting next to him. He never went outside and threw the ball for her; he never got on the floor and played with her. Just now, instead of letting her run out to the car he hooked her up to the leash. I said, “You don’t need to hook her up. I let her run in the front yard all the time.” He said, “I don’t want her to get her feet dirty for the car.” I asked, “why not just pick her up?” He “I don’t want to get hair all over my shirt.” Are you fucking kidding me? Poor Megan! I feel so bad for her and am extremely sad right now. I wish I could have just said, “NO. She is staying here.” But I couldn’t. She is technically his dog. He went and picked her up. He adopted her in his name, not ours. Everything at the vet is in his name. I have asked before and even recently tried calling again to try to get my name on everything and they wouldn’t let me. They asked, “did you guys get married?” I looked at her like, “are you fucking kidding me? CAN I get married?” but I simply said, “no.” To which she replied. “I don’t agree with it either, but that is the policy.” And this isn’t the local 60 year old catholic veterinarian that has his head so far up his ass as to sociological progression, this is Banfield at PetSmart. I mean, WTF!! Whatever. Today has just been a very fucked up week and day. :-(

What do I do with other blog?

Do I copy and paste everything into this blog or do I just leave the link on the right? I don't want to loose all of those other postings on that site, but that is a lot of copy/pasting.

I finally have closure

Ok…the ex. Yes Yes Yes, I know. I thought I was over him. But apparently I was not…until today. Last week he asked if he could come see the dog [Megan]. Of course he could, she is his dog too. He came over today and the first few minutes were very awkward. It was weird. I mean, we have not talked in over two months so yea it is going to be weird. After a while we talked about many things, from work to dating. This is where it hit me. I got REALLY jealous when he said he has been dating someone for a while now and it really hit me when he said that he had sex with five people. I was like “5 people in 2 months?!?!?” I don’t know how it came up, but it did and it bothered me.

He had to go to Target and asked if I wanted to go with. I needed to return something there and to Best Buy so after a bit of hesitation I agreed. It was good though. We went and after a while it felt like we were more of just friends rather than ex-lovers. I am glad I went with so that I was actually able to come to the realization that things were really, truly done.

After Target and Best Buy we went to eat. Again, it was good. We had great conversation. However, I wanted further closure so I asked him a question that has been bothering me for quite some time. I said “So be completely honest with me, Did you ever do anything with anyone while we were together?” He hesitated and said “Actually yes. I made out with someone one time at a bar.” OUCH! That hurt!! I would NEVER do even that if I was with someone. Seriously, why would he make out with someone when he was with me? I don’t get it. But, I am glad I finally have a definitive conclusion to the saga of “Brent and Derek.”

The bright side

This is a little message I posted on our work blog today. I should note that others were posting some things that obviously were coming from disgruntled employees. I guess I have a different view on things since I have something lined up, but I still would not be rude about it.

As much as this whole lay-off deal really, well...sucks for everyone we need to think about it positively too. I mean, yea it really hits home that in 3 months many of us will not have a job. Some of us maybe sooner, and some of us later, but we are all in the same boat and yes, it is not a pleasant feeling. We thought we were stressed when the responsibilities of those recently let go were placed on our plates. Now you can look at it as most of these extra responsibilities will soon be going to someone in NY and we can then concentrate on the new stressor of not having a job in the near future.

However, with severance and the option for unemployment benefits, it might not be so bad. Look at the bright side, you may have a few weeks of vacation. Plus, if you really want, you may even get a chance to move to a city that you have always wanted to live in. New York would be fun. San Francisco would be a blast. Atlanta...at least it is warm and cheap to live there! All I can say now is hang in there and Good Luck to everyone!

Macy's North has been Elminated

Wow...so today was a bigger day than I thought it was going to be. Last night about this time I was thinking I would go to work, prepare for my 9am meeting, go to the dentist at 11, meet Ben for lunch, give my two weeks notice, go to my MBA happy hour, then finish the day out with a game of broomball. Is this how the day went? Nope! No, instead I get to work early to prepare for my meeting, people start rolling in around 8am and I notice a lot of closed door conversations and also noticed two pretty important people in the hall whispering. Once I noticed this, I knew shit was going down sometime today.

So I told myself I should hold off on giving my notice because if this is what I think it is, I might be getting a severance too. Anyway, I go to my meeting and two of 8 people show up. I look at them, and I say, I think we should reschedule because I think there might be a meeting that we will be required to go to very soon. Sure as fucking shit!! I get back to my desk and there is the meeting notice. The auditorium...we only have meetings in the auditorium when the whole headquarters has to attend. Interesting!! I knew it!!

So the meeting is set for 11:45, but my dentist appointment is at 11am. I am like SHIT, I am not going to make it! I go to my apt and finish up at 11:40. Thankfully the dentist is just a block down the street, so I am running down Nicollet Mall to try to get back in five minutes. Remember, the meeting is in the auditorium, but the auditorium is on the 8th floor. Also keep in mind that this building is a huge department store in the heart of downtown Minneapolis with 2 restaurants on the 12th floor and a huge cafeteria in the lower level. Where do many of the dwtn working population go to eat on a given work day? And especially when I have to get to a huge meeting? Macy's, of course. And where are they all at? The elevator bay!!! Let’s just say I was a little late, but thankfully I didn't miss anything.

A chairman from corporate gets on stage and starts out by saying "I wish I were here to deliver some good news, but this is a sad day, and it is not a good day for Macy's North." OH.....fucking wonderful!! GASP!!! I have to play it off like I don't have a job lined up already, right? I knew this shit was coming though. I knew it! I have told people (not work people) this was coming and I said it was going to be soon. Sure enough!! Here we go!! Of course, it doesn't really bother me. However, how do I work this so I can get a severance too? Not a freaking clue folks!!! If the out date for everyone was sooner I might be able to push back the start date with the new job, but 2 more months (out date is currently set for May 2nd and the start date for the new job is March 3rd)....not so sure it is going to happen and I definitely do not want to shoot myself in the foot. How do I work this?

So yeah, needless to say, I did not give my two weeks notice. Instead, after the meeting the whole organization went home or for drinks. I went to eat with Ben, then Kevin and I went for drinks, then I went to my MBA happy hour, and finally to my broomball game.

I am not going to want to get out of bed, but...tomorrow it is "business as usual!" YAY!!! I am soooooo excited to go to work tomorrow!!

Nervous about giving two-weeks notice

Ok….the long awaited beginning to me posting on Blogger! YAY!! Wow, so I have a friend that has bugged me for months about getting signed up for this Blogger thing rather than posting on Live Journal. He says, “nobody uses that anymore!” Whatever!!! So here we go!! I will have to link to my old Live Journal blog because I don’t want to entirely give it up yet. I have a lot of info on that blog. Sad!! :-(

Tomorrow is going to be a VERY interesting day. I say this because I will be giving my two-weeks notice at work. This new job has been 5 months in the making and is a great opportunity with the federal government. I am soooooooo nervous and unable to sleep because I just wrote my resignation letter. This is going to be sad really. I wanted to go in today and tell them, but I can’t as I have a dentist appointment tomorrow at 11am and they have been known to make people leave right away when they give their notice. Not everyone, but those who leave for competitors, or those who have access to such confidential information, such as myself. I guess they are afraid that someone might share this info or some shit. I donno! I mean, I really like my job and will be sad, but this new position is going to be great. I will have to post about the position next time. Until then…g’night!!



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